Broken Glass

Broken Glass

Looking through my broken glass

Broken pieces of a broken past

My hearts been broken even though it was cast

Watching life go by way too fast

Through that broken glass

Light can shine through

Your heart is in pieces, your heart is blue

It’s hard to remember that the Lord loves you

When your broken glass makes your vision askew

Oh that broken glass

Dear Lord shine your light

Shine it on me, no matter how I fight

I know your love is pure love, so bright

Please take my broken glass and make it right

Broken glass

A mirror, maybe a vase

Something beautiful, Lord let me see your face

Just make me something, Lord shower me with your grace

My broken glass, gone without a trace

You can take this something and make it all ok

Renewed broken glass, a mess, just gone away

You have taken something, that had gone astray

And you shined your light, and showed me YOUR way

Little Servant Doni ~ 2013

So, I wrote this this morning and sent it to my hubby who then tells me that it is an awesome interpretation of a bible verse. Funny thing is I dont even remember reading this verse. I knew God was about to move. SO heres the verse in two interpretations;

1 Corinthians 13:12 (NIV)  

¹² For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

The Message (MSG)

¹² We don’t yet see things clearly. We’re squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won’t be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We’ll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!

One day my friends the meaning and mystery of this life will be shown to us. The reflection we see will be ourselves but radiating in God's glory. We are all broken, we have all sinned, we have all made mistakes that makes us feel like we are not worthy of God's love. The beauty of Jesus is this, YOU AREN"T WORTHY, but you get his love ANYWAY! Just like a parent, his love is unconditional, and no matter how bad we are we are still able to recieve the gift of everlasting life. Just ask him. Pray for it! He will renew your spirit and redirect your life. He will hold your hand when your hand is unholdable, and he will fill you with love and shower you with grace. Try it. My life is proof that Christ's love DEMANDS change, not because he makes you change, because you love him so much you want to change.

Each of us is a mess, a beautifully orchestrated mess. Created by HIM, creator of all things, and each of us in turn are displayed as beautiful pieces of art to reflect the beauty of God. You know how art is. Some people like it, some people don't. Some people only see the good some the bad. But No matter where I am in life, happiness or struggle, If I open my eyes and focus on his face, He lifts me up and I can walk on water again.

I AM struggling, but its ok, because he has met me. right where I am, and will continue with me until the end of my days.

I hope you take the time out to pray for me, because I am praying for you and your families, and all of our spirits and souls.

<3 Little Servant Doni

 

Lent isn't just for catholics?!?!?

I really didn't know that other denominations celebrated lent! I am pretty sheltered in some ways. So this year some of you know I have joined the ministry SDI (The Sacred Dance Institute) and we have to fast for the next 97 days. Yup you heard me right, 40 days for the Father, 7 days for Jesus Christ, and 50 days for the Holy Spirit. When this assignment was placed on me I had no clue where to start or what to do or what I was even doing it for. So lets talk a little about Lent.

What is Lent? In layman's terms I will describe Lent as a preparation of the believer through prayer, penance, repentance, alms giving, and SELF- DENIAL. The goal is to get closer to God through this experience, to be enlightened to his word and his spirit, and to pay homage to God/Jesus and all that he sacrificed for us. When you think of everything that God/Jesus has done for you is it really such a chore to give up something you love (that is typically something that is BAD for you) for a few months? At first I thought " oh gosh what will I have to deprive myself of?". But now I think of it as something positive. It is an honor and a privileged to be able to honor my God through sacrifice, and is it really awful to give up BAD things that are not really getting you anything but pleasure to your flesh?

So what am I giving up for lent? Cupcakes are number one. I love them, but come on, that is a fleshly pleasure that makes me fat. Shopping (i.e. makeup clothes shoes etc). I have more then enough of all of these things and just because I like new things doesn't mean that I HAVE to have them when I have more then enough of these things in my home ( I have kept my $10 glam bag subscription though ladies so at least ill get makeup once a month! Praise God for that). Eating out. we all know that I am a food junkie and it costs a lot of money to eat out, my goal is to make healthy meals at home and if I am craving something from a restaurant I will just try and recreate it in a HEALTHY way at my home. So that's where I am starting, I am open to God's will and wisdom and if he tells me to give up something else, I will do it.

What am I praying to gain from all of this? Enlightenment, closeness to God, I hope to open myself up so that I can flow in the Holy Spirit more frequently and easily, I hope to get a healthier body which will hopefully make for a healthier pregnancy and strengthen me as a dancer, and to find myself in Christ's body as a whole. Please pray for m that I can experience learn and achieve these things.

Today's Lenten Scripture for me comes from Isaiah 58. Read it and follow me on my journey!

God Bless you and give you Peace,
Little Servant Doni

So let us come boldly before the throne of our Gracious God, There we will find grace and mercy for when we need it the most... Hebrews 4:16

I have no clue where I am even going with this post so please bear with me. I just have so much on my heart and so much to share.

So let us come boldly before the throne of our Gracious God, There we will find grace and mercy for when we need it the most... Hebrews 4:16 - This is my memory verse for my dance ministry this month and also KLOVE's word of the day online! If you know me you know my dance ministry and KLOVE are huge parts of my life now and it was fitting for them both to reap the same word from God. LET US COME BOLDLY, not timidly, not let us come meekly or mildly, but BOLDLY to the throne of our GRACIOUS GOD. I have been trying to take this straight to my heart. In prayer I come forth boldly, in my dance ministry I am trying to let the spirit work through me so that I can share my testimony boldly, and in life I am attempting to live my life in a way that boldly shares the good news! In no way am I perfect but the fact that I can go straight to the source, God the Father, and plead my case as well as the cases of my friends and family and the lost is an amazing blessing. To think that my little prayer is that important to HIM has made such a difference even in the way I feel about myself and my life. I am discovering even in this simple verse, that I have a purpose and that God has all the mercy and grace that I will ever need even if it seems I have failed.

For those of you that don't know I recently joined SDI, The Sacred Dance Institute, which is a ministry that specializes in liturgical dance. What is liturgical dance? "Liturgical dance is a type of dance movement sometimes incorporated into liturgies or worship services as an expression of worship: the dancers will respond with an appropriate dance which flows out of the music and is thought to enhance the prayer or worship experience. This dance may either be spontaneous, or have been choreographed ahead of time. If it is choreographed it is generally fitted to the song's lyrics or to religious concepts." So basically we are dancing for Jesus. Each performance in SDI is called a "Ministry Opportunity" which to me really puts into perspective what we are doing. Its not just worldly movement, its movement with the intention to worship, movement with the intention of drawing people in and making them ask questions about Jesus. Isn't that amazing? I feel so blessed to be apart of it. Even in the month I am growing , learning, and seeing things that were not so clear to me before. The support from this LARGE group of women has allowed me to blossom in my Christianity and realize that I am different and what I have to say and add to any given situation is valid, life changing and worthwhile.

I have lately seen some friends who are going through different challenges in their lives. For some it seems like the end of the road, for some their self esteem and worth are down the tubes, for some they are barely holding on. I THOUGHT I HAD PROBLEMS. I have spent the last few months wallowing in a self pity. I don't have a career, I don't have any college degrees, I don't have many friends since I have been saved etc etc etc. Within the last month I have began to focus on what I do have. A loving Savior, and amazing husband, I am a loving mother, I am fun, I am bright and funny, I am loving! Who cares what I don't have? And even if I do not have them now, It definitely does not mean I cannot get them in the future. I am making more friends, reconnecting with old friends, and just trying to live a life full of joy and purpose. My point to all of this is, If you are going through something, I know its hard! I know it can feel like the end of the world. I know some of us feel like we are not good enough and will never get ahead... BUT You are special. There is no one like you! God loves you and has put things in you that will not manifest in any other way but through you. Focus on the positives of your life. FOCUS ON GOD. He will give you everything you need. And his perfect love will add positivity to your life. It will add joy and mercy and forgiveness and change and LOVE. So with that being said. Go boldly, Ask him for help, ask him to change your situation, ask him to change your heart, change your mind and invade your spirit. If you give your life to him you then allow him to live in you. Bad things happen, no one promised bad things would not happen, but you have the opportunity to control your outlook and share your testimony with others. When you share your story and your conquering of hardships it allows others, believers or not, and lets them know YOU CAN MAKE IT!

Be blessed and go forth BOLDLY.
Little Servant Doni

a time to be private, and a time to tell the truth.

The truth is this world is still full of miracles. My baby is living proof that God is alive, real and moving in my life today. Even through this time, I'm in and out of the hospital, I have been in fear of losing my baby, but God has not left me or forsaken me. I wanted to keep this to myself and "suffer" in private but my hope is that my story will give someone hope. I have faith and that's all I have. People can say where is God in this or that but I know in my heart that he is right there with me keeping me sane and not letting me give up. So if you take anything from this. HAVE FAITH! it can and will change your life.

"Let us go boldly before the throne of our gracious God. There we will find mercy, and grace for when we need it the most" Hebrews 4:16. That is my memorization verse for the month. and I take it straight to heart.

We need to go boldly before God, and he will give us every single thing we need, including mercy and grace. Even when we think all is lost there's always a little light to remind you that everything good is worth fighting for. Never give up. Never lose hope. And never lose sight of what you truly love.

We should not have any poor among us.

Did you know that we are rich compared to other countries and other families even here in the US. and that our pennies are like hard DAYS work for them. Give something back. Help a neighbor. Donate to a charity. Give that bum $1. Donate some old toys or clothes. Sing to an old person. None of us here on this earth should be without.God placed each and everyone of us here to help someone else. He did not put us here to heard riches while our brothers and sisters starve. Its not a personal opinion. Its biblical. I cant quote right now because Im late for work but it IS biblical. we need to be helpers and aiders and lovers of our people.Gods people.

What has happened to the village or community mentalities. From helping you neighbor watch their kids to correcting someones child at chuch... we have stopped helping each other to advance help and enrich each others families.remember that phrase "it takes a village" well it really does and as Christians and lovers of Jesus we need to think more about GOD and  us and we, instead of me and mines.

People are starving Ya'll.Starving! I don't even care what got them there. Booze, bad decisions, drugs, etc. EVERYONE is entitled to their own mistakes. But now who is going to help them? We should. Each and every one of us should be doing whatever it is that we can do. Not begrundgingly but in the name of the LORD! We should be out loving restoring and giving because we are loved, we are forgiven and we are SAVED. Ok I am late for work but chew on that. Share your thoughts. Please. Feel free. I like to hear what you think.

Have a Blessed beautful Summer Day. Thank you Jesus.
Little Servant Doni

Galatians 6

Chapter 6

We Harvest What We Plant

1 Dear brothers and sisters, if another believer is overcome by some sin, you who are godly should gently and humbly help that person back onto the right path. And be careful not to fall into the same temptation yourself.2 Share each others burdens, and in this way obey the law of Christ.
3 If you think you are too important to help someone, you are only fooling yourself. You are not that important.4 Pay careful attention to your own work, for then you will get the satisfaction of a job well done, and you won’t need to compare yourself to anyone else.
5 For we are each responsible for our own conduct.
6 Those who are taught the word of God should provide for their teachers, sharing all good things with them.7 Don’t be misled—you cannot mock the justice of God. You will always harvest what you plant.8 Those who live only to satisfy their own sinful nature will harvest decay and death from that sinful nature. But those who live to please the Spirit will harvest everlasting life from the Spirit.9 So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.
10 Therefore, whenever we have the opportunity, we should do good to everyone—especially to those in the family of faith. Amen




 Good morning! I thought this was some good reading today. I was going to just post it to my page but it inspired me to share with you my feelings and share how it touched me.


Verse one is a big statement in itself is it not? If your brothers, sisters, children, friends etc are sinning then you should HUMBLY and GENTLY help that person back on the wrong path. My first thought was how most of us are totally ok nowadays seeing someone sin and turning the other cheek. We are scared to say anything. Or are we uncaring enough to say anything. And Im not talking about walking up to someone and putting someone on BLAST. The verse says gently and humbly help them. Love them enough to attempt to tell them what the sin is as well as speaking to them a way where they don't feel judged. One of the worse feelings ever is when someone tries to tell you what you are doing wrong while making you feel like they are holier then thou. We all sin so lets help our brothers and sisters in an uplifting way that can reflect Christs love for us.


Verse two... We are to share each others burdens!We are supposed to be a community of believers working together to do what is right and just. We are supposed to support and care for those who are broken, saddened, discouraged and lost. We should be working together and taking the" if one hurts we all hurt" attitude. That's just my opinion though ;)


Verse three is just an ego CHECK is it not? If you think you are to important to help someone else... YOU ARE FOOLING YOURSELF! How many people do we know and see that act as if they are too good to help someone else in need. I think we all should remember that one day YOU could easily be the person in need and since we reap what we sow. You might want to sow some good seed in case you ever need to eat from another brothers or sisters table. Our greatest command is to love each other as we love ourselves. Jesus says that when you feed the lowly you are essentially feeding HIM, and who doesn't want to feed Jesus???


Verse 4. oooh another ego check. If you pay attention to your own work and strive to do your best then you will have no reason to compare yourself to others. Work hard so that you feel good, work well so that you can feel satisfied in what you are doing, and do your work as if your boss is GOD and you will have no time nor need to compare yourself to others. You are not working to be better then "so and so" you are working to provide for your family and hopefully in some way to glorify our Lord.


Verse 5. We are each responsible for our own conduct. In other words "MIND YOUR BUSINESS and keep your nose out of everyone elses" You are responsible for your actions and conduct. SO be the best you that you can be!


Verse 6. We are almost done. Some of you probably stopped reading a long time ago. SHARE THE WORD OF GOD. Share your faith. Go boldly forth into this world because that is what God has placed you here to do. I can tell you that sharing my testimony is one of the most awesome, freeing feelings I have ever felt in my core. To tell someone about how much Jesus loves me just bring me a joy like no other. And even if they arent a believer the person you share it with might just open their mind up about God.


Verses 7-9. You reap what you sow and you sow what you reap. If you sow good seed you get good fruit. If you so bad seed you will gain nothing but decay nastiness and eternal DEATH. Lets sow some life, love, joy and peace up in this world! Can I get a witness?!?!? Lets sow some hugs and kisses and some friendships and some glory. ooh Im getting a little happy just talking about it <3


Verse 10. Lets take it home now. In essence we should do good to who? EVERYBODY! yes even your neighbor you cant stand. Yes even that heffa from high school that you are mad at. Yes even that parent that you feel wronged you. Yes even that person who stole from you. Yes even that man who hurt you to the point that you feel unlovable. Do good to them, that is medicine for you and for them. I promise you after awhile you will feel better about your life and the seeds you are sowing.


I love you guys. I love you guys enough to share myself and my thoughts words and love. I know I am no theologian but I thought it could be a fun and uplifting way to get the word into some of you that don't read the bible because its too boring, or you dont understand it etc. (im guilty of both of those) So lets share if you have anything to say add it. If you have nothing to add maybe just send me some love so I know I touched you.

You know I have to pray now =0) Heavenly awesome amazing father God in heaven. Thank you for waking us up this morning. Thank you for the word that you left for us to help guide our lifes and teach us about you. Lord when we read your word, even in little bits, Please allow it to touch our hearts and to motivate us. Enough so that we and others can see the change in our lives, that your love forgiveness and mercy bring. Thank you for everything you do and are, and Thank you for your holy spirit to give us understanding.


May God Bless you and Keep you, in Jesus name, AMEN and THANK GOD!

Little Servant Doni

Lets just ramble a bit shall we

Can I say I have had an amazingly crazy month or so. My life is always so random and amazing to me. Let me catch you up quickly. Instead of Christmas in Indiana we all opted for Christmas in sunny California. So I planned a trip and all FIVE of my family members flew to Los Angeles. We spent 4 awesome days there and I loved every moment of it all. I wouldnt change it for anything in the world. So needless to say were pretty stinkin broke right now, but God will make a way out of no way. Oh I got a promotion! (go GOD!) now I am the Part-time Supervisor of said Maternity Store. I am so encouraged and feel like my hard work this last year with this company has paid off. Im still working my butt off though because I still have goals of being further ahead then I am now. Pray for me!

This is going to sound so silly but since I have only been going to church in my adulthood for a couple of years now, I havent had the oppurtunity to talk to people about the Lord. I got a nice chance to share some things with a girl at work and can I say... It felt like an honor to be able to share what giving my heart to Jesus has done for me. I felt like a prized pony or something just beaming with proudness and tears streaming to reiterate that im still a sap. This poor girl thought that since she was a sinner she wasnt a baptist... Ok one really has nothing to do with the other. being a sinner is enevitable and to be a baptist just means you believe in "once saved always saved". All Christians are sinners, and anyone that says they are not, IS LYING. So have faith young one we all can change. Look at me. two words SEPTUM PIERCING, and God still loves me.

I can honestly say to you that nothing negative has come out of believing in Jesus. Haters are going to hate no matter what religion you are. But now I have a peace, a joy and a hope that makes my life even More worth living. I love morals! They make you who you are. Morals keep you safe, and inspire you to be better by maintaining then. If you dont like morals, maybe you should look introspectively and figure out why you its ok to hurt people with your actions. Lack of morals does nothing but allow you to act like some sort of animal. Rules are great people, they keep us safe.

Hmm what else can I bore you with? My daughter is gone for 3 weeks in CA with her father. Its a nice little break and I can work nonstop without worrying about daycare. I feel almost human and that inspires me to be an even better mom for Miss stinky pants.

Hopefully you guys understand now that I love You! God loves you
and if I didnt I wouldnt be sharing myself with you. Whoever you are =)

Praising the Lord,
Little Servant Doni